Solveig stood by her word and her ethics and loyalty to all those she loved dearly. The one thing, more than anything she absolutely detested was hypocrisy – she couldn’t stand folk ‘showing up at the nth hour’ so to speak…she would always say, “if you can’t be bothered with me then don’t show up when it looks good just to make an appearance or when it’s convenient – or because it’s self-serving”…we knew and still know a few sad folk like this…even after Solveig left us there were, and are still those that act like they’ve known her throughout our marriage, through raising our children, her growth as an amazing independent and strong religious woman who chose her path definitively without doubts, and yet ‘these folk’ have not spoken to, or have had any involvement at all in ANY aspect of Solveig’s life, our family or otherwise for LITERALLY 26 years – and yet feign this ‘am so sad and so shocked and deeply grieving’ – I don’t begrudge anyone expressing their sympathy, but to act like they were ‘close and tight-knit’…I mean yes, grief and loss are very individual and grief is a journey…trust me, sadly I know all too well how hard it is… but seriously if you haven’t seen or heard from someone in over 25 years…come on…the hypocrisy… these are Solveig’s least favourite people…she loathed this type….that is fact…she even wrote a song about it which is on our album together (The AK/SK Project – a thunderous exchange of silence)…I also have a number of hand-written letters she wrote on this exactly…I’ll put one in the gallery so you can see first hand…it’s clear and precise.
Solveig’s life and memory are pure and it will remain that way, untainted by fake, phony and frankly deluded acts by those in their hypocrisy.
On our wedding day, when we danced our first song together, Solveig looked me with such love and respect, I couldn’t believe how lucky I was…I couldn’t take my eyes off her either – I knew we were meant to be…our pasts were silenced and the joy of a new day and all the new days that would follow filled us with such love that did not waver – not once in our lifetime together. Solveig may not be here with me anymore physically but she IS always with me and our girls looking over us now and forever. I will be with her again when it is my time, until then I will live as she lived, with love, passion and with unwavering love for our girls.
Our song…”You’re the Inspiration” (Chicago)
You know our love was meant to be The kind of love to last forever And I want you here with me From tonight until the end of time You should know Everywhere I go Always on my mind In my heart In my soul
You’re the meaning in my life You’re the inspiration You bring feeling to my life You’re the inspiration Want to have you near me I want to have you hear me saying “No one needs you more than I need you”And I know (And I know) Yes I know that it’s plain to see So in love when we’re together Now I know (Now I know) That I need you here with me From tonight until the end of time You should know (Yes, you need to know ) Everywhere I go You’re always on my mind You’re in my heart In my soul
You’re the meaning in my life You’re the inspiration You bring feeling to my life You’re the inspiration Want to have you near me I want to have you hear me saying “No one needs you more than I need you” (No one needs you more than I) Want to have you near me I want to have you hear me saying “No one needs you more than I need you” (No one needs you more) You’re the meaning in my life You’re the inspiration You bring feeling to my life You’re the inspiration
When you love somebody ‘Til the end of time When you love somebody Always on my mind / No one needs you more than I When you love somebody ‘Til the end of time When you love somebody Always on my mind / No on needs you more than I need you
This is the meaning (as explained by Solveig and our German friends) beyond the literal translation of the words and reflects more the spirit of the saying: “Your blessing is with me every day, mornings and evenings, that I happily spread my wings wherever my path may lead me“
Translation (loose translation, as it is written in literary German):
“blessing prevailed (not exactly the right word) over me in every situation (or circumstance), early and late, so that I happily unfold myself wherever my path leads me“
I’ll never forget that night when I met Solveig for the first time at my band’s CD release party (well the second time…read part 1) at the Topaz Entertainment Palace (Ottawa, ON). I was literally at the other end of the venue and I saw her come in with her, at the time, music manager – a close friend of mine then had said she would be coming to the show so I knew to expect her, but I didn’t expect what followed.
When Solveig walked through the entrance I saw her right away, through everyone else, like they were all invisible, she took my breath away…dressed in a black outfit, (skirt, heels and black top), she was just gorgeous and I remember that moment like it was 2 seconds ago – she was stunning! People always talk about her hair, and yes I saw that of course, but it was her aura and her eyes and her genuine smile and heart…I melted. My female singer at the time noticed I was captivated and said ‘Azim, snap out of it man, we have a show!’.
The band had a media room and we invited Solveig and the manager to come in and chat, and then before we went on to perform they came backstage, which was downstairs below the stage area – it was a very nice venue and had a great reputation, so he environment was good. Solveig’s manager did the usual ‘business chat’ and it went on for a bit, but Solveig and I were instantly attracted to each other and wanted to just talk alone – so we traded numbers and gave each other a huge hug before I had to go perform…I’ll never forget that either.
There were no cell phones, email, text etc at that time…no, it wasn’t the dark ages 🙂 but we made plans to call each other that week. I remember as her manager was talking just looking right at Solveig and she at me, and we knew there was magic…all the conversations disappeared and we were suspended in time right there – I remember being scared too as I knew in my heart, SHE was THE ONE, and always would be…I remember thinking ‘is this possible? Can I know this quickly?’, it’s like life started right there, right at that moment, our pasts disappeared and we started new…Solveig and Azim…Azim and Solveig – those that have known us over the past 26 years know what I mean when say there was only us and then our girls…part 3 to follow.